May 1, 2010 by Nic
For the first time in years, today, I ran on a track. For my PAT on Wednesday, the 15 min jog will have to be done on a track, and I wanted to start practicing on a track, now that I know I can run 15 mins without stopping. As a background note, I have serious issues with tracks–I get to a track to run and because of some past experiences my anxiety shoots through the roof, and I become convinced I’m going to fail miserably. Hence wanting to be sure I practiced on a track.
I got through a little over half of one lap and had to start walking. There were other people there, and all I could think about was how I was going to fail on Wednesday, and they were basically going to laugh at me for even thinking I should try. I was ready to forget this whole thing, get in my car, and drive home. I walked the last half of the lap, though, and decided not to go home. I decided to start again, and forget anything about speed. Forget anything but a simple pass on the test, which means jogging for 15 mins without stopping.
And I did.
I was slow. Incredibly slow. But I jogged 15 mins without stopping on that track.
I’m not overly proud of my performance. To be competitive Wednesday, I think I need to make it look a little easier! But I AM proud of the fact that I didn’t give up. I started over, and I met my goal. I can only improve from here!